Datuk K & Datin CT/Mawi/Eeeena~

Due to feeling down and jaded and afflicted with boredom during this long-long-looooooong holiday marathon*wipes off a sweat* I actually was kind of looking forward to watching these local bizarre 'reality show' on TV bout our 'BiGGesT&SenSationaL'stars nowadays *rolls eyes...TWICE*. What about?? CT ofCourssssee..and d old dude. ANd whats that about Mawi & Ina haaa?? Don't you think it's kind of pathetic to be promoting yourself on TV??No matter what the reasons r. Tragic ppl.

Once upon a time I used to really kinda liked CT..very nice.. decent..sweet... innocent lovable angelic CT Nurhaliza.Malaysia's most precious Jem. Well u get me right??But when ppl like her kinda snatched(willfully or NOT)someones hubby (of 2 decades) doesnt it kind of challenge a womens security in a marrige? I mean this for aaaall the women in Malaysia. How could a stabil institute disrupt just like that(eventho it took a 2 years or so) just because u found another cute succesful chick.

It kind of makes me feel more precarious about commitment and blablabla.But heck..not everyones the same i guess.Not everyones a creep like DK.Ha Ha.CT owez says that she as an artist is officially owned by the public.So she does whats best.She commited herself loyally to the ppl.Right?Then plz tell me what she was thinking when she decided to MARRY the old fart?(who btw,has very good-looking sons *ehem*) I mean..cant she of chosen someone single(I know its hard to find a good guy whose oso single nowadays but she's CT for crying out LOUD!She could've married some Metrosexual guys or even PakLah if she wanted)

Guys!! I bet Malaysian guys just don't have the guts to come up to her and ask for her hand.I feel ya buddy.Well no use talking bout her anymore.The deals done.No use bargaining.I sympathize the x-wife(as a wifela..as a women i'd say..woooohoooo..you go girL!Go scrape all his wealth!).During the ceremony..DK was like facing down while CT wasn't and my mom was like 'Eleh ngade2 DK ni..CT bukan main naaa tegak camtu die tunduk2 lak.I tried to calm her down by saying 'Ala ma,CT da biase ngan public..die tahu nak face public.DK tu mestila rase self-concious sikit(plus coz he should be ashamed coz he was MARRIED ady b4).The whole M'sia is watching'. Another thing i think die mcm x 'glowing' as i would of expect her too.Seri pengantin.I dunno maybe Its just me tp something was missing there.

I only watched it for a couple of Min (ok2 half n hour kot) coz Mawi...Ina thing was on too.I could've accepted the Aznil & Mawi part but couldn't bear the Rosyam&Ina part.Unbaerable/unendurable..NOT edible.Just couldn't digest.Goosebumps all over.I was gonna throw UP! Mushy3.It was so UNreeeaall.Rosyam was like doing one of his movies/soap scenes.Aznil is a BAD actor but he's good when it comes to spontaneous acts.He seems more real.And Mawi was more realistic too.For Ina..I just wasn't/couldn't connect withya honey.Plus..He's better off withoutcha..ur better off without him too la..kot.

Wat-EVA.

Eternal Sunshine For The Ruined Mind?

"Stronger Than Your Sympathy,
This Is My Apology"

Wouldn't you just love the idea of having the ability to wipe out all those painful memories?? Memories that give u nothing but embarassment and hurt? I know I do*thinks reaaaal hard* Yep! Definetly.

Yet in a way we know deep inside our hearts,we know that those memories are the essence of our beings of today. Its what makes us what we are. It trains us to be more wiser and bolder when a decision has to be made.Which road should we take,what issues may we indulge ourselves in.It builds our strength in facing our demons.These 'momentos' actually mean more than we'de ever imagine.

*waves* I'm just messing witya.

Actually..they remind us of how Stupid we were.N how ridiculous the situation was.

I have a few memoirs i wanna delete from my memory box.Such as:

1. Boria,Pentomin,Presentations,Debate(stupid,stupid,stupid)
2. Stupid things I've said to ppl
3. Stupid things I've done in my life(concerning myself n ppl around me)
4. Stupid actions
5. Stupid looking expressions
6. Stupid reactions
7. stupid comments and jokes
8. stupid outdated clothes

Conclusion= anything to do wit stupidity.

I know i'll probably laugh these memoirs off one day*breakaway* but..its not happenning right now..so still i wanna erase them.There is sumthing a lil' more personal i wanna banish from my thoughts..its dat person..get 'dp' away pleeeeeaaasssee..i DONT need anything to remind me of 'dp'.I am so ashamed.so so.I wanna LET GO.But in the same time i knw dat person makes me a better in judging ppl in the future.

One more is like KU???

QueeN B~

Friend or Foe?

I’ve been quite reluctant on coming back here as I said in my earlier entries.Once, I used to really2 look forward on returning ‘home’.Honest.Coz I felt that this was MY territory.I experienced the deep feeling of belonging.Its not that I had some turbulent past in SA or anything like that.

But then I migrated back to SA to further my studies.At first I was fearing of intimidation.But I faced my ‘fears’ and I suvived.Better more,I loved the college life.The ‘city’ life.Free from serving and obeying the Queen. Free from being scrutinized.My ultimate freeeeeddomm.

Then finally,she called for me.She rang for me.I was subservient to her biddings and went*jaw drops* .Stoic(not THAT stoical)To be frank ,I wasn’t thrilled or excited at the thought. When Jpa called up and gave me the shocking news recurring bout the extended holiday I felt my world crumbling around me (whatta freakin..)I’m doomed.Doooomed I tell ya!

One night while watching this show with the ‘royal’ family,princess called Queeny.Queen started complaining abut me to her and she compared me with the prince.My blood was starting to boil so I spoke up to defend myself.Realizing that I couldn’t go on I left the room and went to my OWN.Crying.Weeping.LOL.Yup.Its been a Long time since I cried like that.I poured my heart OUT to Ngoi.He’s such a great buddy u know.

Afterward the Queen came barging in and said ‘Ko nak balek esok? Mlm ni jg blh tempah ticket.Ko x sukekan duduk cni’ n yadda3..she came in twice asking. She’s so so Gawwdamn good in using the ‘guilt’ technique.Aaarrghh…I bend.So here I am at square one.

Friend or Foe?

I guess a morely like a friend.

Good friend or true friend?

U know..a good friend would bail you outta jail but a true friend would be sitting right next to you saying ‘Hey that was fun..Lets do it again!’

So I guess the Queen is a Good friend rather than a true one coz she only thinks whats best for me.

D queen I must give credit for her patience.She used to sit with me and loyally listen to whatever crap I had to tell her*salutes* She always seemed interest in what I had in mind.She provided me good education and allowance too..haha. And when I needed her she was always there.Always.But I guess as time pasts by…combining a stubborn gurl and a stubborn old women is not THE best thing to do.

Your Higness..I love u so much.Deeply.But could u try cutting me some slack here and let my do things MY way?(its not like my way is wrong..its just diff den urs)