~L-O-V-E~

Love J..stinks.Hahaha..not love to God or anything religous.Human love.Atleast among gurl n guy...even with little experience...i can oredy feel the vibe of eeeeevvviiiillll...hahaha.I mean i dunno y,but i can't accept the theory of unconditional love..coz on the way over there..sumthing or sum1 else is gonna stir ur lust.I dun like it.Its not fair.I guess a relationship shoudn't be based on luv..but on respect and admiration and self-reliance.My x-Mr.X...was a blood sucking asshole..yup.Hahaha..4give me 4 saying.But to me like..if ur really into sum1,u shouldn't give up easily.Don't let go and let her drown..N wats up with the excusus??? Dun u have anything better to give.'Long distance' my arse...If u really like sum1..no matter wat the complication,distraction,watever..ur suppose to be willing to go thru it together no matter the consequences.At least fight 4 it a bit.But nooo..u had to give up.Shame on u.Dats weak man!!Ur a disgrace to the world of men.Rather than u face it like a man..u ran away like a lil boy.A mouse.Freakin yella of a coward.And just bcuz i was not really willing to give it all..doesn't mean i won't.My priorities are my family..my education right now.My God.Now guys...i thot when u loved sum1..looks doesn't count anymore.Ur partners beutful/handsome eventho the fact that they looked like shit(as in tired after a days work)..hehe..and u don't seem to see flaws.I guess it wasn't the real thing for me..coz i saw flaws..and luvd wit condition.Huh~ Sumtimes..i think,thot all this happend bcuz of my parents.They prayed real hard so that my heart,for the time being,to be closed 4m the opposite sex.Maybe.Becuz it was all of a sudden.One time there it was..the other..zap!Nothin..Klaaa..i'm getting a headache..Later Days~

Worth It!!

Books3 dat i've read recently n i luvd:-

• Angela's Ashes, Frank MaCourt
• Keeping Faith, Jodi Picoult
• To Kill A Mocking Bird
• Angels & Demons, Dan Brown
• If I Should Speak, Umm Zakkiyah
• Undomestic Goddess, Sophia Kinsela
• Family Album, Danielle Steele

Read Lot More..but dose were among d best..Stash Them Guys!!

Dis Month's Update

Hye J..
Wow..its been a while huh? So where should i start?? Well..bout my result? Oh maann..was it bad..i cud say so.I let myself down.But i'm grateful enuf i got thru u knw.Wait..tryin to think wat i've been doin these past weeks.Last weekend i followed neenab and her parents to PD.It was great i tell ya(wat wasn't was d fact dat i got sun burnd makin my oredy dark face..DARKER!!) We swam in d beach pool den we went to play Go-Cart!! At night we went to have dinner at Medan Ikan Bakar.Neenabs mum and dad are really cool and free spirited!! Her mom especially!! Very2 young spirited and extreme..reminds me of mak a bit u knw. A week b4 dat pegi Time Square 4 our Field Trip assignment..haha..It was great..but sum of the rides were painful! I'm crius J...my neck hurt very much! Waa..Sum were so soothin and sum were thrillin!! I loved space attack..it was neither painful or boring..But d best ride was prob d bumper cars..We played like 3 times!! and J..a week B4 DAT..got dis seminar my grup handled. Bcuz of duty i had a bit of a brush wit Anna but alls clear now n we'r back to normal.Thank God! Owh..and last week..Me and Neenab did sumthin out o' d blue!! We walked all d way from college to Seroja! It nearly took us about 2 hors to get der.Lalu d freakin highway..hahaha..crazy.People omost didn't blieve us!! mm..Later~